There’s this guy who I’ve basically been in love with since I was younger. He’s not my dream guy, but what can I say even years later he still makes me swoon.
We recently got back in contact with each other and have been communicating on a daily basis. I thought maybe this would be it and we’d have the perfect story to tell inside edition when they ask me how I achieved all my goals.
However that day will have to wait because we are not meant to be, here’s how I figured it out and broke my own heart.
They say ain’t no valley high ain’t no valley low can keep me from getting to you. But they must have had a lot of extra time and money to spend. I’m just not that dedicated to driving that far, and I’m not here to convince anyone else to make that drive either..plus while I have feelings for him he also broke my heart before so the trust isn’t there.
I took a long look at him.
Once I stopped swooning and I took off my rose colored glasses. I realized he wasn’t that great. In the since of he didn’t bring out the best qualities in myself and I doubt there was any good qualities I brought out in him.
It was pretty one sided..
While I like to believe we both got excited to talk to each other I’m pretty sure it was just me. I started to be the one talking first and asking to video chat and all that. Which is fine to do, if the guy is your boyfriend and seems to be just as interested as you. But if your calling and he hangs up shortly after telling you he’s going to call back and never does you might want to take the hint.
Never any time…
Long distant relationships take a lot of time. More time than traditional relationships. Neither one of us really had that time to put in to make this work.
I have to be honest with my self. If I was going to take the jump was I really going to stick with it or did I just like the idea? It was mostly the thought I liked,not the actual commitment. After I got pass the butterflies I hate to admit it but I would have wondered around and messed around, not a good look but hey I know me.
After all this thinking I decided it’s best to remain friends occasionally with benefits. Nothing more nothing less. It hurt to tell myself no but I value the friendship way more than dating him, even though it’s a nice thought.
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