I love my family I really but it’s draining going to travel so far and too visit. I’m the youngest out of the 1st generation of my cousin’s and there’s a 7-year gap between me and them. Also, most of them have kids I have no interest in that I end up spending my time with my uncles and mom. Again it’s nice but my family and I are just opposites and I’m so tired of playing a character.
When I go home I’m not me and that’s why I hardly go up, and with this year I’ve had outside of the pandemic I’ve come to terms with myself, and being fake is not an option. All that aside this aside I’m ecstatic that there’s a zoom Christmas. Again the traveling (my extended family is like 6 hours away without traffic) is too much. I can drink some nice wine and watch the grinch and hallmark movies eating some yummy homemade popcorn! It’s going to be great. I know this year for many people are literally risking their lives to travel home. I really wish you wouldn’t because cases are spiking but it’s the holidays no one is listening to anyone.
Anyway, that is why I’m thankful for a zoom Christmas. No awkward hellos, I don’t have to pretend to be happy to see your kids or meet your new husband and I don’t have to justify why I’m single (I’m working auntie, leave me alone.) I’ll be at home with my puppy, camera off, and enjoying the solitude. I hope you guys have a very merry Christmas stay safe, wear a mask and I’ll talk to you guys later.