I’ve always admired weird people. Those girls with way too much makeup on, the one that has glitter and tattoo covering every inch of her body. I love it! Before this whole quarantine business I was thinking about coloring my hair like pink but I was scared of bleaching it. I had done it before and it didn’t go well ( like my hair broke off) but after watching bleaching disasters on YouTube I realize it takes a lot more than I thought for bleach to go way wrong. My hair isn’t relaxed this time, so that helps. Something that also helped was the show “Hooked On The Look” I saw people dressed as aliens, clowns, Barbies…so many Barbies..that I got to thinking why not?
Right then and there I decided I was going to order the bleach and dye and just do it. Deep down though I thought would chicken out like always and it would sit in the back of my bathroom cabinet going bad like the others. That is until I had a mental breakdown. As I was trying to talk through and calm myself down.
I realized there’s only so much I can control. There’s going to be events in my life that just happen, sometimes good sometimes bad and it’s ok. I just need to focus on the things that I can control, like my hair. I know it’s not always the best or easiest solution however doing something that I’ve always wanted to do like dye my hair some crazy color is a really great way to take my mind off my anxiety.
It symbolizes the freedom I have in my life to do what I want. To not let my thoughts, my friends,family or people control my life. If it’s something that I like and I want to do then DO IT. Turning my white flag blue so I won’t give up and I can and am giving myself permission to be myself and to be great unapologetically. I’m low key so excited for all this. What’s something you’ve been wanting to do but havent had the courage to? Let me know in the comments.