To The Left, To The Left
When it comes to relationships even the longest standing can enter the danger zone when things get real.
I’ve always been one to bite my tongue especially when it comes to friends. I rather just have you rant about your issues than to tell you why this issue is really your fault or how it’s not that serious. That’s what friends do right?
With one of my oldest friend, I’ve been growing more and more frustrated with them. Really what it is, Is I’ve been hanging out with newer people and trying new things. When I go back home to visit my mom and them I’m crestfallen. I’m happy to see them but they’re always with the same group doing the same things. I feel bad because I feel like I’m looking down and I know they’re trying to do better.
Encouraging words are usually met with defensive reasons. Whenever I try to add a bit of criticism or advice it’s usually shut down if I don’t shower it in between praises. It’s a practice that’s getting old for me.
Last week my friend and I got into a fight when I did get honest with him. They hung up the phone on me when my floodgates burst open. I told them really everything that I held in about them and they hung up on me.
I didn’t regret it and no I didn’t call back. It makes me wonder if we were truly honest with all of our friends and family would we have any relationships left?. It amazes that the first time I was honest that it was met with such anger.
I thought about this as I laid down for the night. I decided, in this new year, I’ll let things fall where they may. Seeing how I’ve been frustrated with tour relationship maybe a much-needed break is needed.