Year: 2018

Creating A Compost In A Small Apartment

Creating A Compost In A Small Apartment

I’ve always been interested in composting. Partly because I garden and I would love to have a instant source of soil and I feel a little guilty throwing out my scraps after I’m done cooking. In my head I’m like “but can’t I just regrow […]

Learn How To Over Power Your Bad Thoughts & Reclaim Your Happiness

Learn How To Over Power Your Bad Thoughts & Reclaim Your Happiness

I have a really bad habit of replaying bad and negative events that have happened in my life. No matter if it’s from high school or last week my brain just loves to watch old movies. Every time one of those thoughts come up I […]

What Happened When I Was Sober For A Week

What Happened When I Was Sober For A Week

I have/had a drinking problem, I’m well aware of my tendencies. However it’s not as bad as everyone thinks. A few weeks back I was going to see a therapist a few weeks back to work through somethings.

When she found out how often I would drink (every day starting when I woke up) she asked if I considered my self an alcoholic. I told her I would meet her in the middle and say I showed symptoms of alcoholism because I didn’t have withdrawal symptoms (like shaking or irritable )when I wasn’t drinking. She asked, “Well how do you know if you never stopped?”

That’s where it all started

I don’t like not having answers to questions about myself and that was one question I did not have an answer to. So two bottles later I decided to cut out drinking.

Day 1-2

I was fine, I missed drinking. I was just going through the motions with work and I would come home. I didn’t want to really go out or talk to people. On the 2nd day, my manager came and asked me if everything was ok because I was being robotic. Of course, I told her I was fine I couldn’t tell her I was drinking at work.

Day 4

The headaches start, they’re mild, you hardly notice them but they are there. It’s been pretty steady since the second day. Maybe I do have withdrawals… Also, my depression as came back and that wasn’t cool I couldn’t even blame it on me sobering up.

Day 5

I woke up basically and I realized where my unhappiness came from. While I don’t have the most stressful life, my job is a large part of my unhappiness because there’s hardly any work-life balance. So I feel like I’m always there, with people who are ok, but I’m not necessarily looking forward to seeing any of them, ever.

Day 6-7

I have made it my week! I set new goals found a new passion and calling and I’m on my way. I do miss drinking and thought when the weekend hit the first thing I was going to do was go to liquor store and chug a bottle. Instead, I woke up and meditated, I cleaned my whole apartment and I’ve been working out.

Conclusion

I’m not going to continue down this road of avoiding alcohol forever. I will drink but just limit it to a few days a week like the weekend. I do see how my mental state has improved. So again moderation and maybe not grab a drink first thing in the morning lol.

Edit: I just want to mention today I drank 2 glasses of wine, and I still got a headache. So maybe it’s not from withdrawals.

You’re Inspo Post Is Not Inspiring

You’re Inspo Post Is Not Inspiring

Per my last post, you know that I’m sorta finding myself all over again. Without any help from outside sources. I was recently on my Instagram hardly posting and noticed how many inspiration pages I followed. Not like a “You deserve more” page but like […]

On The Path Of Life Instead I’m Turning Left

On The Path Of Life Instead I’m Turning Left

For a long time, as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to fit a mold. I wanted to be how everyone else was or thought I should look like. It was al I knew. When I was growing up it was in a “traditional” […]

Third Love Officially Put Victoria’s Secret In Their Place

Third Love Officially Put Victoria’s Secret In Their Place

Courtesy of: Thirdlove

I know I’m a day late and a dollar short. However, HERE’S MY TWO CENTS!

Victoria Secret is pretty much a staple in lingerie, almost every girl has been to Victoria’s Secret for her first bra fit and come out with their first bra or thong(like I did). Eventually, they go off to other places once the novelty of the brand wore off. I myself have never bought a bra from Victoria mostly because I’ve never wanted a real push up bra, and as I got older and my breast grew I can’t even fit in their bras anymore. When I started working at a bra store, I had women of all ages come in and tell me how they can’t stand VS anymore and how the bras fall apart. I can’t tell you how happy I was to just buy their panties.

The women would tell me how the bras would fall apart after a few wears but most of the time I hear women say they don’t want lacey push-up and satiny bras every day. They just want good, supportive that support them and fits them, something that seems to have escaped Victoria Secrets grasps so sayeth their own Chief Marketing Officer they’re not here for everyone, they sell a fantasy. Seriously here’s the quote from ELLE

“It is a specialty business; it isn’t a department store,” he said. “I’m always asking myself: If we do that, what is the reason we did it? Why did we include that person? And did we include them to shut up a reporter? Did we include them because it was the right thing to do or because it was the politically correct thing to do?”

Really dude, so you’re telling me that you really are only here for men and their fantasy… not for my boobies or supporting me, the woman paying for the bras and wearing them. You might as well just call it Victor’s Secret since it’s a fantasy for men not a place for women. Unlike Third Love…Third Love is for the Girls, here’s what they had to say in regards to Victoria’s Secret statement according to ELLE.

“You market to men and sell a male fantasy to women. But at ThirdLove, we think beyond, as you said, a “42-minute entertainment special.” Your show may be a “fantasy” but we live in reality. Our reality is that women wear bras in real life as they go to work, breastfeed their children, play sports, care for ailing parents, and serve their country.”

So beautiful, I don’t have anything else to say, but do you? Let me know in the comments

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Spending the Holidays Alone? Here’s How To Do It Like A Boss

Spending the Holidays Alone? Here’s How To Do It Like A Boss

The holidays are usually a time where you get to spend time with families and long-lost friends. However, that’s not the case for some people. For it to be the ‘Most Wonderful Time of the Year’ it’s the time where seasonal depression hits some people […]

Cancel My Postmates Order, Sir We’re Through

Cancel My Postmates Order, Sir We’re Through

I used to have a guy that I used for delivery dick services. I don’t have to sugar coat with you if you’re familiar with off4thandgraham.com. But we were in relations for a while. I had no issues with him. We were involved for a […]

Why Be Me When I Can Be Someone Else?

Why Be Me When I Can Be Someone Else?

Sophia recently started dating Marcus about 3 weeks ago, they’ve already had some problems. Marcus is a phone freak meaning if you don’t respond in 5-10 minutes it’s an issue. This typically leads to a fight to the point where they won’t talk for days. Mellow dramatic for a 40-year-old man, but we all know mature slower than women so maybe that’s it.  But Sophia loves, love so while she ignored his request they’re still going strong, sorta…

One weekend to appeal to his athletic side she asked him to go on a hike after work. Sophia isn’t much of a hiker but she’s going to try it in the name of love.

 

It started off beautifully they were taking pictures, laughing, and giggling but about an hour later the sun began to set and Sophia’s anxiety began to set in. She thought it would be a 45-minute walk but it was really more like an hour he feet were starting to hurt, her sew in was getting hot, and her back was hurting. But they haven’t even gotten to the top. Marcus, however, was loving the walk, he even took pictures of the sunset.

She powered through right before they made it to the top before she snapped… As Marcus was taking his pictures by the waterfall. She snapped at him to hurry up and leave before she heads down by herself. He snapped back that he didn’t even want to be here. They end up argued all the way down to the car and ride back home.

While in the car she began to think if she does manage to make this work does she want it? Is any kind of relationship worth saving with a guy who doesn’t even want to try? She left the car without saying goodbye and she shuts the door realizing he’s not worth the effort.

Are We Set on Settling?

Are We Set on Settling?

I love hearing old stories of how people fall in love and got together. The happy ones, where men used to court women. Sending flowers, talking on the phone all night, the 3 dates before a kiss. The love you see in old Audrey Hepburn […]